merlingirl88

1. Bold the names of guys you'd definitely shag.
2. Italicize the names of guys you might shag after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who don't do anything for you alone.
4. Put a question mark after the guys you've never heard of.
5. Strike the guys you wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole.
6. ADD FOUR OF YOUR OWN AT THE END.


1.) Dr. Christian Troy (Nip/Tuck, tv)

2.) Mike Delfino (Desperate Housewives, tv)

3.) Dr. Gregory House (House M.D., tv)

4.) Warrick Brown (CSI: Crime Scene Investigation, tv) ?

5.) Dr. Derek Shepherd (Grey's Anatomy, tv)

6.) Anthony (Tony) DiNozzo (NCIS, tv)

7.) Jim Halpert (The Office, tv)?

8.) James 'Sawyer' Ford (Lost, tv) ?

9.) Danny Taylor (Without A Trace, tv) ?

10.) Derek Morgan (Criminal Minds, tv)

11.) Noah Bennet (Heroes, tv) ?

12.) Michael Scofield (Prison Break, tv) ?

13.) Dr. John ‘J.D.’ Dorian (Scrubs, tv)

14.) Sam Winchester (Supernatural, tv) ?

15.) Chandler Bing (Friends, tv)

16.) Jack Bauer (24, tv) ?

17.) Jason Bourne (The Bourne Identity, movie)

18.) Westley (The Princess Bride, movie)

19.) Captain Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean, movie)

20.) Rusty Ryan (Ocean’s 11, movie)?

21.) Detective Mac Taylor (CSI: NY, tv) ?

22.) Detective Danny Messer (CSI: NY, tv) ?

23.) Sheriff Jack Carter (EUReKA, tv) ?

24.) Dr. Nathan Stark (EUReKA, tv) ?

25.) Jonathan Creek (Jonathan Creek, tv) ?

26.) Dr. James Wilson (House, MD, tv)

27.) Mark Corrigan (Peep Show, tv) ?

28.) Fitzwilliam Darcy (Pride and Prejudice, tv, book and movie)

29.) Jools Siviter (Spooks a/k/a MI5, tv) ?

30.) Captain Jack Harkness (Dr. Who/Torchwood, tv) ?

31.) Danny Ocean (Ocean's 11, movie)?

32.) Jack Bristow (Alias, tv)?

33.) Dr. Owen Harper (Torchwood, tv) ?

34.) The Doctor (Doctor Who, tv) ?

35.) Commodore James Norrington (Pirates of the Caribbean, movies)

36.) Nathan Petrelli (Heroes, tv) ?

37.) John Winchester (Supernatural, tv)

38.) Eric Delko (CSI: Miami, tv) ?

39.) Rick Simon (Simon & Simon, tv) ?

40.) Ardeth Bay (The Mummy, The Mummy Returns, movies)

41.) Withnail (Withnail & I, movie) ?

42.) Gene Hunt (Life on Mars, tv) ?

43.) Dean Winchester (Supernatural, tv) ?

44.) Giles (Buffy the Vampire Slayer, tv)

45.) Mick St. John (Moonlight, tv) ?

46.) Mr. Big (Sex and the City, tv)?

47.) Henry Fitzroy (Blood Ties, tv) ?

48.) Tim Riggins (Friday Night Lights,tv) ?

49.) Peter Petrelli (Heroes, tv) ?

50.) Logan Echolls (Veronica Mars, tv) ?

51.) Rodney McKay (SGA, tv) ?

52.) Chris Keller (Oz, tv) ?

53.) Mohinder Suresh (Heroes, tv) ?

54.) John Sheppard (SGA, tv) (?) ?

55.) Dr. Daniel Jackson (SG-1, tv)

56.) Alec McDowell (Dark Angel, tv)

57.) Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, tv)

58.) Priestly (Ten Inch Hero, movie) ?

59.) Jason Teague (Smallville, tv) ?

60.) Angelus (BtVS, Angel, tv) [

61.) Logan/Wolverine (X-Men, movie)

62.) Jess Mariano (Gilmore Girls, tv)

63.) Sam Tyler (Life On Mars, tv) ?

64.) Harold Saxon/The Master (Doctor Who, tv)?

65.) Ianto Jones (Torchwood, tv)?

66.) Steven Hyde (That 70's Show, tv)

67.) Cassidy Casablancas (Veronica Mars, tv) ?

68.) Mason (Dead Like Me, tv) ?

69.) Robbie Turner (Atonement, movie)

70.) Derek Reese (Sarah Connor Chronicles, tv) ?

71.) Chris Miles (Skins, tv) ?

72.) Tony Stonem (Skins, tv) ?

73.) Dexter Morgan (Dexter, tv) ?

74.) Reed Garrett (CSI: NY, tv) ?

75.) Greg Sanders (CSI, tv) ?

76.) Nick Stokes (CSI, tv) ?

77.) Dick Casablancas (Veronica Mars, tv) ?

78.) Charlie Pace (LOST, tv) ?

79.) Merry Brandybuck (Lord of the Rings, movie, book)

80.) Pippin Took (Lord of the Rings, movie, book)

81.) Sweeney Todd (Sweeney Todd, movie)

82.) Edward Cullen (Twilight, movie, book)

83.) Jack Shephard (LOST, tv)?

84.) Nate Archibald (Gossip Girl, tv, book) ?

85.) Logan Huntzberger (Gilmore Girls, tv) ?

86.) Jasper Hale (Twilight, movie, book)

87.) Emmett Cullen (Twilight, movie, book)

88.) Nathan Scott (One Tree Hill, tv)

89.) Chuck Bass (Gossip Girl, tv) ?

90.) Clark Kent (Superman and Smallville and L&C, tv/movie/comic/life)

91.) Coach Eric Taylor (FNL, tv) ?

92.) Seth Cohen (The OC, tv) ?

93.) Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill, tv)

94.) Skills Taylor (One Tree Hill, tv)

95.) Dan Scott (One Tree Hill, tv)

96.) Dan Humphrey (Gossip Girl, tv) ?

97.) Jacob Black (Twilight series, book)

98.) Gabriel "Sylar" Grey (Heroes, tv) ?

99.) Desmond Hume (LOST, tv)?

100.) Daniel Plainview (There Will Be Blood, movie)?

101.) William "Bill the Butcher" Cutting (Gangs of New York, movie)?

102.) Gerry, (PS. I Love You, movie)

103.) Draco Malfoy (Harry Potter, Books, movies)

104.) King Arthur( clive owen, king arthur movie)

105.) Captain Barbosa (Pirates of teh CArribean, movie)

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I can't get into the TV room right now....
I AM MISSING ONE OF MY PINK PANTHER DISKS....
I AM ALSO MISSING BUFFY SEASON 6...
who know's what else......
but if i don't find them....
i will not be the best person to be around....

just home for like a day and a half. I enjoyed it. Didn’t do much, hung out with my parents mostly.

I’m so ready to be out of school. Lately it has sucked ass….

I went and saw Iron man with my dad this evening…. it was awesome…. great action good storyline, funny, also, Robert Downy Jr.=HOTTTTTT

really this is one of the only times I’ve ever really been attracted to him… I want a poster of him from that movie…. he was buff… i mean really, i don’t know what it was, probably a mix of the buff and the pretty face and the hair, and the fact that he was a superhero, very very very hot….

I was attracted….

DOOOODDDD…. I’m excited for 2 things right now….

1. Indiana Jones»»> YAY i grew up watching the indiana jones movies, the forbidden planet, star wars, etc…. so I’m super excited… especially cuz Harrison ford is going to be in it…. not a freakin imitation….

2. NEW MUMMY MOVIE…. yum… Brendan Fraser….. its going to have him, Jet Li, the same guy playing Johnathon, but a different Evey and Alex…. Alex is just played by someone older, NOT BAD LOOKING AT ALL… Should be coming out in august…. Freakin Sweet….

Almost time for me to go home!!!!!!! Not going to be in monterey….

this isn’t going to sound very good. But when I’m at school in monterey right now, down there with everything, and my living situation. I feel broken down there. Like part of me is dead. Thank God I only have one more week….. Woot….

For those of you who know Giovanni…. somehow……(cough* roommate* cough)…. his screen is cracked….. so he is suffering from an injury. He will be going into the computer hospital next week, after school gets out. Not only will the screen be replaced but he will be getting a new disc drive. Hopefully all will go well.

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overall this year was pretty good.
I went to venice for spring break, I graduated from High School, and I started my years at college. My favorite moment however, was my birthday. It started off not too good. A friend had lied to me, and my friend Ti left to move back to texas. I cried my eyes out the morning of my nineteenth birthday, and called my mother sobbing. She then, around 7 in the morning, promptly woke up my sister to come get me. My sister came and her roommate, her, and myself went shopping and strolling around Monterey for the day. When my roommate Destiny got out of class we went out to dinner, the four of us. After an extremely long ride home with my sister, I was tired and still not as happy about my birthday because of the morning incidents. My friends called to find out if I was home and came over with presents and cake. they had waited most of the day for me to get back from school, so that they could wish me a happy birthday. they made that day special when it probably would have gone down as one of the worst birthdays. It was my golden year, and I wanted it to be awesome. Some things had ruined that, and other things made it better. My friends showing up that night made me feel so loved and happy. that was my favorite moment. Because I felt loved

thanksgiving makes no sense....
its just another meal....

when you love someone truely, you can be yourselves in front of them.
You can show all of your emotions without fear...

one month and six days....
starting christmas day, he will be cut out of my life completely and he doesn't even know it.
in one month and six days, it will have been one year since i last spoke to him.
Hopefully then i can be free of all that was left behind.
in some ways i wish he would contact me, in other ways i wish he would leave my life and mind forever...
one month and six days.
Can I really erase him completely.
I wish I could hold a space in my heart forever, but the space that was left there is filled with pain. I can't keep it open for him anymore.
In one month and six days, my heart and friendship will be closed off from him forever.
Does he care?
Does it matter?
Is he completely oblivious to all I've been feeling....

kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate., i will not kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate. i will not kill my roomate.....

hello LJ!!!!!!

shoot me, just shoot me.
I'm not in a good mood right now...
I promised myself that i wouldn't have anymore best friends, well i completely got screwed up when i met some friends in college. I got really close to this one girl, and when i introduced her to my roomate, its been them attached at the hip and me being left out. I know they care, they are both taking an interest in my health. They took away my sugar, and a creating a workout routine for me, but i've just started to feel so alone.....
I just want to curl up and cry, sadly when you live in a dorm you have no freakin privacy. My roomate is always afraid that I'll hate her. I couldn't hate her, i just feel like i have nothing in common with either of them since i introduced them...

Ok... so I finally had that conversation with my friend. We've had a tension between us for a while, and I finally decided to talk to her about it.
It wasn't pleasant, even though I kept the calm look on my face, I felt myself break in several pieces.
I told her I wanted to work it out and still be her best friend, but she said, I don't. I was shattered.
She blames my anti-depressants, and the fact that I don't have the best relationship with my parents. She said she felt like she was the "parent" and that in a way I always went to her with my problems, and that she was tired of dealing with my problems. She said it in nicer words then I just used, but that was the gist of what was said. I don't want my other friends to hold it against her. She told me the truth because I asked for it. She says she still wants to be friends, but I can't handle it at this point.
She still is my best friend, to the public eye, but I'm distancing myself. I tried calling her and that put me in a bad mood. I... It got me thinking; I've realized I haven't had a best friend more then about 5 years. That’s my span, 2-5 years, then either I leave, or they hurt me.
I wonder if I've ever hurt anyone like this. If my former friends who I've grown apart from have felt the way I feel now.
I don't understand how that stuff can be said and then she just expects to remain friends. It hurt me. I feel broken, and that nothing can put me together again. This song popped into my head. It’s by good charlotte, which I don't really listen to anymore. But songs never officially leave my head.
"Wounded"

Lost and broken,
Hopeless and lonely.
Smiling on the outside,
and hurt beneath my skin.

My eyes are fading,
My soul is bleeding.
I'll try to make it seem okay,
But my faith is wearing thin.

So help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open,
And I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me sew them up.

I only wanted a magazine,
I only wanted a movie screen,
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed.
And now my mind is an open book,
And now my heart is an open wound,
And now my life is an open soul for all to see.

But help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open and I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me,
So you come along,
I push you away,
Then kick and scream for you to stay.
Cuz I need someone to help me,
Oh I need someone to help me,
To help me heal these wounds,
They've been open for way too long.
Help me fill this hole,
Even though this is not your fault,

That I'm open,
And I'm bleeding,
All over your brand new rug.
And I need someone to help me sew them,
I need someone to help me fill them,
I need someone to help me close them up.

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Gah... I don't know how long this is going to go on. I need space, and I know this is a broken heart. I blame the fact that I dislike her boyfriend. I told her so, and I think it is his influence on her. I don't think he told her what to say, but the way she thinks about things, and maybe that she doesn't need me. I'm not going to argue, but it hurts a lot right now.

On the upside I went to Great America today with some other friends. It was fun; my throat is sore from screaming on rollercoaster’s. My voice will probably be gone tomorrow. We went on rides; played in the Water Park, water rides, rollercoaster’s.... all that stuff.... it was good, bad food, and all that stuff, helping me clear my head.

1. Best friends suck
2. I want a furry animal like a bunny to be my new best friend.
3. Am I annoying, i think so.
4. I'm clingy
5. I push my problems onto other people cuz I can't handle them by myself. -note to that... when i do deal with it by myself, people don't know about it cuz i keep it to myself... so therefore "every" problem i have them help me deal with is another new problem
6. I push myself onto other people.
7. I feel like I'm broken and no one realizes it.
8. Kill me now.
9. I'm too depressed to sleep.
10. I need to cuddle.

no one to talk to.....
my thoughts are back clouding my head. i know that habing a best friend helps because then you can trust them with it and talk it out but I don't trust any of my friends that much.

I now refuse to have anymore best friends. She has finally made it clear that she doesn't want to spend personal time with me. Its okay when we are in groups but its hardly ever just me and her. Best friends always hurt the most. They are always the ones that cause me the most pain.

I'm startingto wonder, if I were to dissappear, how long would it take my best friend to notice. There has been a tension between us and I can feel it tearing us apart. I wish she would talk to me the way she used to. If I were to dissappear it would probably take her a few days to figure it out.
I have different groups of friends and I wish they could all just get along. I'm graduating in 2 weeks. Soon all of it will be gone, some of these people I will never see again. The drama will be gone. I will be sitting home by myself wishing for people to call me but they never will.
I probably won't remain best friends with my friend right now.
I'm tired of best friends. The think about best friends is that they always seem to hurt you the most.
I wish my friends would all share what was going on in their lives. Maybe that way i wouldn't feel so alone. Maybe it's my own fault. Maybe I push everyone to the point they are annoyed with being around me. I'm...
I don't even know who or what I am. ...
that is all

I'm sorry for the tension between us.
I'm sorry for being distance
I'm sorry for judging the way you are.
I'm sorry for being a nuisance
I'm sorry for always tagging along.
I'm sorry for pushing you away.
I'm sorry for not being trustworthy enough.
I'm sorry for making you feel bad.
I'm sorry for pushing you towards something you may not want.
I'm sorry for being klingy.
I'm sorry for being over protective.
I'm sorry for annoying you.
I'm sorry for my lack of enthusiasm.
I'm sorry for always complaining.
I'm sorry for always talking about myself.
I'm sorry for repeating.
I'm sorry for being overdramatic.
I'm sorry for breaking you heart.
I'm sorry for pushing my problems on you.
I'm sorry for not trusting you.
I'm sorry for not being who you thought I would be.
I'm sorry for not living up to your expectations.
I'm sorry for pushing you out of my way.
I'm sorry for yelling.
I'm sorry for wanting you out of my life.
I'm sorry for things I can't change.
I'm sorry for making your life more difficult.
I'm sorry for not being able to keep up the conversation.
I'm sorry for scaring you with things that have happened.
I'm sorry for lying to your face.
I'm sorry for wishing it was all over.
I'm sorry for changing my ways.
I'm sorry for making you ashamed of me.
I'm sorry for being a burden.
I'm sorry for not being social.
I'm sorry for not butting out.
I'm sorry for sticking my nose where it doesn't belong.
I'm sorry for being too needy.
I'm sorry for dragging you places you don't want to be.
I'm sorry for making a mess of things.
I'm sorry for not talking to you when I should.
I'm sorry for not keeping in touch.
I'm sorry for chosing opposite sides.
I'm sorry for thinking I hate you.
I'm sorry for wanting to be different.
I'm sorry for making you read this.
I'm sorry for my constant mood changes.
I'm sorry.

If I can't stand myself, how can other people. I'm annoying, I'm clingy. If friends of mine are getting together, I'll invite them to do it with me, then end up feeling like I'm intruding. I borrow clothes. I am so close, then push myself away. All I want to do is go curl up in the corner and cry. I want to hide where no one can find me. I want attention but also wish people would just forget about me. I make choices for my own purposes, and end up feeling guilty, and selfish. I want a new life. I distract people, and make myself feel like a complete idiot. I don't want to hear my good qualities, because it doesn't matter to me. I've heard them all before. People love me, You're a great person, the truth is, I don't care about this stuff because I don't believe it. My bad qualities outway my good. I am my biggest critic, and I can find my biggest faults. I know other people judge me. Its part of human nature. Everyone makes judgements about me. I see looks on peoples faces and see feelings in their eyes that I know I have felt, so I push myself away. Guilty looks, annoyed looks, fed up looks, dissappointed looks. I am weak because I run away from everything. I run away from the good and the bad. I realize that I'm not moving forward by doing this but for some reason I can't get it out of my system. I feel the need to run away from everything. I don't let people see me cry. If I start to cry, I run away. I think that with the looks and situations I run away from, I am avoiding my own weaknesses. I don't want to face them So I leave them behind, only to have them catch up to me.

he gets mad at the slightest thing. This weekend he left the house overnight "for my protection" meaning he was upset with me and he stayed away just in case he got violent. He grew up in an alcoholic abusive house and when he started to be the same way, before I was born, my mom left him for 3 days. Other then that there have been very few incidents where his anger has come up like that. Now I'm more nervous and gittery around him, afraid that all the little things will set him off. I even have an "emergency bag" packed, in case anything does happen.

All my life I've been hurt emotionally by friends. Today we had an assembly called SLAM.... its to prevent drunk driving...
anyways i walked in WITH my friends... but ended up sitting behind them because they wanted to sit with their boyfriends. there was no more room for me in the row. Not once through the whole assembly did my friends, including my best friend. look back at me...
i'm tired of getting hurt by friends actions.